wait for me Darul Imaaaans....

dear my beloved batikchantingss...i'll be leaving u for a few days starting this evening... as scheduled before, den nak poie balik nogoghi den kat Darul Iman nunss... g ronggeng with my other 2 ngosngess frenss...my bus will be at this 3pm.... but i probably dont have chance to meet Nadia...as she's just deliver her new baby 2 days ago at DEMC sana... i dont think she can make it with us this time... what to do... suddenly her new baby tu malas plak nak klua.... almost 1 week Nadia tu overdue... but anyway, i pray for her and her new baby, semuga sihat sumenye...

so oklaa batikchantingss...i'll update u more when i come back here...with zillionthss of photoss ngosngess kitorg...keh...keh..keh....(sik saba aku mauk nangga, pusin2 negeri sendighi...:D...)

chow cincauss!!!

mata...oh mata....

dear batikchantingss...adehss...what a sad day today.... sadis tahap gaban btuuul... rasa nak nangis pon aderss ni... my beloved new glasses just broken digilis oleh atosku sendiri.... waaaaa.....:((

i was actually on the way back to Sekilau with faie...she rides me since she's on leave for 2 days, urusan kete katanya....then, the rain suddenly fell heavily... myself yg baruuu je selak daun pintu ICT buiding tu, terpaksa standing there for a moment and hoping that the rain will slowly subside... but unfortunately, looks like macam tak reda2..."redah je laa sue.."...faie said to me...then i just take off my glasses and hung it at my leher baju kurung.... i dont like my glasses turns to wet...especially for its lense... (in a short word, i'm very particular dlm bab2 jaga spek nisss)...

that time was a bit rushing for me and faie....as the rain makin heavy, we just put our stuff at the back seat of my atos (campak2 je...)...then quickly get into the car. i started the engine and reversed the car from the parking lot.... then i realized that my view was blur...and i tried to take my glasses which hung at my leher baju kurung tadi tu... and suddenly i panic!!!...the glasses was not there!!...."alamak!!...mana plak spek saya ni faie???..cemana nak drive niss??"....i'm so worried and throb... dalam ati ada jugak terlintas..."ke...aku dah tergelek spek mata sendiri...oh!! tidaaakk...!!"...but i tried to calm down myself... "rilekss...rileksss suzana...insyaAllah there must be somewhere...that glasses just fell down and hopefully it is still ok"... keep searching in ICT buiding near to the main entrance door, takde...keep searching lagi on the pedestrian...pon takde....oh God!!...ati ni makin terasa that my glasses was just run over by my atosss....."awak tolong tgk bawah kete saya faie...saya reverse kete japss.."... faie looked down when i reversed my car and horribly to admit that....spek den dah lenyek disituuuu....adehss....sadisnyee terasa melihat kehancuran dan kelenyekan spect yg selama ini setia menemani mataku yg ngosnges kerabunanss inisss....

as i arrieved sekilau hills, i told my bak about my glasses....and as expected, my ears mmg kena denga those long pot pets...pot pets...adehss...dah laa tengah sedey.....isk...isk...anyway, never mind... i do accept all of his comments as all of this terrible problem punca from my own careless...walaupon dah berjaga2....then i asked my mom to follow me to megamall...and again....i have to buy a "new eyes" as my eyes are extreemly need it very much....

well suzana, it was a though moment for me for this month....as my new semester will be starting just around the corner....waaaaaaaaaaa....:((

"planning" - closing of 2005...

dear batikchantingss.... time waits for no body... it keeps ticking regardless of anything. and sedar tak sedar, we are leaving the 2005 in a few days, +- 21 days from the day i post this entry... meaning that, myself also dont have much time for ronggengsss2 after this, as my 2nd semester will be starting early of this coming january 2006. i dont have any preparation for that...even most of my seniors did post some good and benefitial materials at the forum...(hehehe...dah cuntiss2 ni, mim alip lam sin laaa plak nak dig those thing :D)... anyway, i should not take it easy actually as the higher the level of semester, the tougher the situation will be.... and i know the consequences if i dont notice about this earlier... (juzz dont repeat what u have done 12 years ago - quotng hj zahid's word...hehehe...)... otherwise, u'll regret someday suzana...

yet i still want to have some fun for my 'school' holiday... if there's no aral come across my plan, i'll be going to my own home town on this comin' 22nd... and will be meeting and gathering with my gilersss2 klos frens... (kind of reunion laa ni kekononss ..ihikss...) Tak tau laa what will happend when 3 of us meet together again. will we be the gillerss2 like 15 years ago?...after 2 of us got married, one of them already have 1 hensem son and expecting the 2nd one... one of them also married and still waiting to get their own children...and the other one who is still single (ermm...i dont have to elaborate on this so much)... so my fren DA had already come out with her fantastic plan (i hope), go here...go there... chat about this...chat about that (i think they want to chat more "about" me)... i myself pon juzz come back to my own hometown tu when it comes to celebrate the aidilfitri... otherwise, mmg tak balik pon... as i have nobody there...cuma my aunty's family and relatives yg jauh2... and DA also stated that we will have a lots of fun there... i hope we can ronggengss setiap ceruk terengganu... as myself actually tak khatam lagi pusing terengganu tuss...hihiihi.... anyway, i do hope that it will be a memorable and tremendous gathering for us....

so wait for me terengganu!!...i'll see in u a few dayss!!!!....

"Because of You..."

Salam batikchantingsss...just wanna share the sadness of this lyric of the song...isk..isk....layan vclipnye lagi sadiss....

Because of You

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hard
I learned the hard way, to never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh
Every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry
In the middle of the night
Over the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you

suzana's weekendssss...

dear batikchantingssss....adehss.. what an exhausted sunday morning for me this week ...i just washed my beige atos td, which looks so so so terribly dirty. comot tahap gabanss!!!... the raining season really makes me lazy to wash my beige atos, as i keep travelling from sekilau hills to gambang almost everyday... everybody knows that once the rain keeps falling, the road (yg ada a bit of selut melut tuss) will indirectly spalshing out to my cute beige atos tu...isk... daaah comot atos den tu. and its getting worst if my beige atos is drived just behind those lorries...or any bulky vehicles...

hmm...last nite, i went to accompany my bro to buy his new PS2's cd game... i did buy for him previous day, but the cd cam peninss2... suddenly the game keeps loading while my bro tgh sedap2 driving lajuss dlm "need for speed" tuss... mgkn cdnye yg ngosngess... i also went to PC Fair which held kat megamall kontan tuss... lots of booth yg dibuka but none of them yg jual the notebook that i planned to buy... so again, as usual i need zahari...isk...

as for today plaks, i dont have any plan actually ...just lepak kat umah while preparing and finalising my next tech spec presentation which is shceduled to be held tomorrow (i hope this will be the last one)... the presentation session will be in the afternoon and installation part will be handled at user's place in the morning... hmm....hope everything will run smoothly....

anyway, here is the picture of an activity of "menchanting batik" which is grabbed from my adoreable photographer's fp - saifulnang... the picture is taken when he had a shooting of his client somewhere at Bali i think... hmm...bilooo la den can have a chance to chanting the batikss by myself....